10:35

is this real?

rising to leave, remembering, awakening--
losing it. trying to fight it, swallowing;
breathing it back inside.

are you settling for someone rather than no one?
better to share a cramped bed than be alone with your thoughts?
questions i can't ask, because i really
do            not               want to know.
something i cannot bear to burden myself with the knowledge of--

why? what do i fear?
you are flesh, blood and doubt, just like i am.
pull your anchor from the ocean floor,
send me adrift. i shall float endlessly.

lost at sea.

it would seem that i have found land in you.
but i swear, you are a mirage. playing tricks on me, unreality

until i reach your shores and feel the warmth of your sand between my toes
lie down in the safety of your shade and find shelter and tranquility there
peace, a happiness not felt...
but suddenly so real, is this real?